Last Day in ICU

I am currently at work. As you can see, it is not too bad. We had the most wonderful lunch. It was prepared by my friend Les. She is one of the kindest people in this world. My coworker Leslie, brought a wonderful cheesecake. We all sat and ate. (This is a uncommon occurrence if you work in a hospital) All of us oohing and ahhing over the spaghetti that I can't even put into words how yummy it is. Eva, a nurse on the night shift brought in a homemade cake that she decorated. Currently, I am smelling the icing and wanting to run my finger through it. Did I mention I am at work. I try very hard to not put my fingers in my mouth here. Even after washings it still has the alcohol foam we use in and out of every room. Not a pleasant taste I might add. I have been here for 4 years. The majority of my nursing career. I got pregnant while working here, had Tia, closed our business, and moved. I have lost some dear friends and family during this time to illness. I have watched people come close to death and miraculously survive. I have seen those who should be going home decide it was their time to "Go Home" and not step foot out of this hospital. I have been called every name in the book. including (my sis-in-laws favorite) a GD lazy no good whore. That was a fun day? I have been puked on, pooed on, peed on, bled on. I have seen heaven and hell. I have hated this place and loved it more than I could imagine all in the same breath. I have made friends that I hope I will never lose. Working in the ICU, you become family. You spend 12 hours a day with each other. You know the good and the really bad of each person. No one else can understand except for another nurse. You get frustrated when you do everything and someone still dies. You cry on the way home b/c that patient you have taken care of for the past two weeks won't be there when you get back. This day brings a rush of emotion that I was not prepared for. I have never left a job when I wasn't past the point of hating everything about it. I love Baylor Waxahachie. They honestly have the best doctors and staff. They care for their patients like family. I wish I was able to continue on here, but after much thought and prayer it is time for me to move on. I will still receive my care here, as will my family. To those who will read this from there. I love you all and you will have a place in my heart forever. Well, 3 hours to go and I will no longer be an employee in Waxahachie. Fort Worth here I come!